To clear up a misunderstanding

Some have told me that from my first post they thought I was saying that I was the youngest in my family. I am the youngest girl in my family. I have a younger brother. I never took care of him in my defense. I have a whole other kind of issues from him. But I didn't want people thinking that he wasn't a part of us.

Breaking point

I had a ruff day, trying to function on maybe 4 hours of sleep. It's hard to wear all my hats and be nice all the time when I constantly get no sleep. So I think I have decided that enough is enough and I need to start taking care of me. Making better choices for my health and wellbeing. So that I have more control over myself and can show up how I want to and not the other. The trick is to keep my resolve last to tomorrow. So I will report back on how committed I stay to myself. Putting my self care and needs before others is healthy for me and my family. With me functioning at a higher level will bring everyone more joy and fun in their day. It's a win win.

Self care

So I really don't take good care of myself. I would never let my kids eat like me. But for some reason I have an issue caring enough for myself to do anything different. I want to eat better and exercise but I don't do anything. I want to try the Virgin diet by JJ Virgin. I want to do the Metamorphosis work out dvds. I just don't have the energy to research it and make it happen. I have gotten closer to wanting to do the leg work.  Hopefully soon. But why is it that it takes so much more effort when it's for me. If this was something for my child or Jay I would have it done by now. I am worth the effort!  I need to just do it. Anyone want to do it with me? Let me know. Thanks

My sisters

My sisters

Oldest to Youngest

or right to left and back to front:

Barbara Sayre

Virginia Strawser

Cynthia Padgett

Ellie Pitts

Shea Gowin

Heather Silva

Stacy Bostrom

and me

Kelly Fox

Pie tonight

I made chicken pie tonight. And everyone liked it. I mixed cream of chicken and cream of mushroom soap. Then chunks of fried boneless chicken breast, corn and cheddar cheese. I put it in the oven for 15 minutes at 350°. Then the best part.  You top it with stuffing and cook it another 30 minutes. So yummy. I love that I can try new things and they actually turn out.

Where do you fall in line?

Being the eighth daughter of my father I was automatically given an identity of "the baby".  But how do you move past that? How do you become more or be seen differently than as a baby your whole life? I continually struggle with being heard and seen for who I am and not who I was. As the youngest I was given the easiest chores and never allowed in the kitchen growing up. Which at the time was great but as an adult I found that I didn't know how to do anything. I didn't have younger siblings to take care of, I wasn't given much to be responsible for and I didn't know how to cook or clean.  I have over the years learned, and continue to learn, how to move past this. Gaining my own style and mode of figuring things out. I have learned from friends, popular TV shows, church meetings, and online search engines. I was motivated by need. When I moved away I had to wash my clothes, feed myself and pay bills. When I got married the needs increased. I was now taking care of two. Then I started having children and I was overwhelmed with the skills and information I lacked. Slowly but surely I have started to accumulate skills, tools, and strategies to keep my house some what clean, my 5 children alive and us all fed. This blog is for me to share what I have learned and my journey forward. Please come join me. Share your stories and suggest away with things that have helped you.